Aiden was down with fever on Monday night (7 Mar) and he stayed home the next few days as his fever did not subside. The husband was on 1 day leave the next day and went back to office after which.
Thursday both of them tested positive (10 march) and today is day 2 of being positive but it felt like eternity for me already.
I have no where else to rant, and i dont think anyone has the tank to listen to my negativity either.
But im feeling abit reaching my limit now.
The husband was totally down every since ytd morning and 95% of the time he was just lying there too sick to move or do anything. I went for groceries to stock up food incase i tio also. Settled the boy and accompanied him almist 24/7 except for that 1 to 2 hr when i was out to buy stuff.
Theres not really a moment that i can have my me time in peace. When hes napping, im clearing my work for ac and usually (consider it heng or not) he wakes up almost immediately the moment i finish my reading. And the mother duties continues...
Its already quite sian to stay at home whole day, watching kids shows, trying to find activities for him to do. Just wanted to sing a few songs in peace but i couldnt do it without aiden screaming for me, climbing onto me, blowing whistles, asking me to play with him, doing dangerous stunts tt i need to pause and ask him to watch out, or help build a house.. im annoyed but i cant vent it on him cause i know hes very bored too.. hes a kid. And considerably a very obedient one.
I feel so tired nagging at him to drink water, to go potty, to eat his food properly and to pack up his toys. When i talk nicely, nobody gives a shit. And then the husband comes in to shout/scold aiden bcos aiden nv listen to me. And then aiden cry. And then makes me feels shittier. Like why cant i be more firm or patient so aiden doesnt get scolded.
I cant help but to feel unbalance when i see how the husband can just lie at one corner, totally almost 0 presence and can forget about being a father when hes sick. Cause i doubt i will be able to rest like this if im the one falling sick. I confirm still have to mother. He told me he maybe shud not eat meds so he wont feel so lethargic and can do some stuff. But what stuff can u do?
Im sure he also wont actively play with aiden given to be home whole day. He will end up lying one side and scroll his phone and let aiden just be... ok maybe except for some house work like washing dishes and stuff.
My head is starting to pound and my throat's a little uncomfortable thou im still negative as of this morning.
I dont know how long can I hold in for. Sometimes I wish im the one to isolating. But at the same time i know aiden (or myself) wont be able to tahan for 7 days apart.
Fml.
I still got 5 days to go at least.
Pls let routine return to normal soon...
Im holding in so hard to not let my emotions be seen but as usual im gonna fail cos my sianness vibe spread very fast. Sigh..
