Keep calm and ignore

In life, we have those people that really provides emotional support and encouragement in your life. A quick chat once inawhile to check on one anothers condition and sending love + positive vibes.

On the other hand, u have ppl who are constantly drowned in negativity, complaints and overthinking. And those ppl feel u shudnt judge them.

Aiya. I can be nice, i can be nasty (which level of nastiness den depends on how negative u are) thou ppl say im generally quite mild.

So as a gemini, once i decided that im gonna black list u out of my life/things i give a fuck about, thats it. No need to come and explain shit or put :) :) :) behind msgs that arent what it supposed to mean. #toofake

Bye.

Thoughts on Life after giving birth

Frankly speaking i dunno if i will be able to handle a baby and doggy at the same time. Thou tuitui is like one of the easiest and independent dog to handle already (except for the occassional lao sai episodes and limping legs).

When i hear infant or baby or toddlers cry / kick up a fuss and making lots of noise in public, the fear is greater. Do i have the patience for this shit? Will i be able to tolerate if its my own kid? Will i be able to stop them from irritating and disturbing other ppl in time?  Will my kid listen to me?

Will i still have quality time to spend with tuitui? Hes getting older as days pass by. And every min with him is equally as precious as how the baby grows up. But baby grows UP, tui grows OLD. Thats the difference.

I really hope im still able to shower him with enough or best the same amount of love and attention. Pls dun tell me i wont one lah cos baby more impt. Blablablaaa a shit. Cause i noe a new born or baby is really alot more mafan than tui.

Sigh.. Seeing this old limping dog with the kelian face really breaks my heart. Please please get well soon (permanently) my dear boy.

Animal comming with my baby

Lol. This might sound abit crazy but we recently wondered if can use the same method to talk to unborn babies?

Mich helped me to talk to baby a few days back and gotten a reply.

Tried it today and he actually replied me. Its like a inner voice within. U noe its not really urself. Sometimes he coupled with some movements in the tummy too.

Week 16: The unexpected gender reveal

Time flies and we are at the halfway mark of this whole pregnancy journey. 4 weeks ago, we had another appointment with our vet, lol erm no, GYNAE!!! I wasn't really prepared to know the baby's gender but mouth itchy and ask the doctor : "now can know gender already not ah?" 

He did not reply me.. and continued scanning, while explaining that baby is normal...blabla.. this is the baby's xxx... and suddenly he said: THERE SEE THIS IS THE KUKUBIRD!

DAAANGGGGZZZZZZ. Totally can feel the whole room's atmosphere crumbling down. Especially when I look at le hubz's expression LOLOL (He looked like he failed his major exam and cannot graduate). I know how much he wanted a girl/ anticipated for one, as much as I was quite disappointed with the revelation, I tried to comfort and tell him that "Aiya nevermind, please accept reality" #butobviouslyhecannot. After which I bet none of us remembered what the doctor said as he continued....

Lehubz then ask: "What are the chances of him becoming a girl during the next scan?" *Feeling hopeful*

Dr: This one so obvious already wont wrong one lah. 1%. #can

DAAAANGGGGZZZZZ. #hopesdashed 

We walked out feeling all complicated and unable to digest what we just heard. Because it was so sudden we weren't prepared to accept the reality. On the way back, to soothe our emotions, we started to brain storm names for boys (because we have been thinking about girl's name all the while only LOLOL).  

That helped a little. But hub says lets hope it's a finger or hand. Cannot confirm till the detailed scan/ when baby is born *Facepalm*

Here's the legendary kukubird picture:

Save meeee!

Rant post.

One thing about pregnancy that hits my threshold is probably how ppl keep dictating or nagging me about wad i can do or cannot do.

I did read up and research on some.  And i know its "for my own good" "if not u will regret next time" "if not next time ur baby come out u die xxxx" "if not u old liao will have body ache"

Cannot drink cold drink
Cannot drink caffeine
Cannot eat sugary stuff
Cannot jump
Cannot run
Cannot bath
Cannot bring baby out after sunset
Cannot this
Cannot that

放过我吧...

Going into 2nd trimester

Not much pretty changed from the last trimester.   Except that a have a little more backaches. Luckily im still mobile and thus able to bring tuitui out for more gatherings with his bros and friends!

We went to:
- Garden by the bay east with Aiden
- Vedure cafe with Aiden, Bubu, Sassy and Sugar (the Senior citizen squad)
- Gardens by the bay for blood donation ceremony followed by ECP to celebrate Pebbles and Hana birthdays ♥

At week 20, i can significantly feel my tummy expanding. It feels hard and bloated, so i will keep poking it. 

At night i felt rumbling and sensations i wonder if its the baby moving?

Have been slowly ticking off the checklist of baby things to buy in this 2 weeks cause baby expo is coming soon!

Whoo!! Ok as usual this stupid blogger dun let me upload pics so words for now only.

Gonna see baby again tomorrow for detailed scan.  Fingers crossed!!!  🐶

Things to avoid saying to a preggo

Just a rant post here because ive gotten enough remarks saying that ive bloated, alot,  my thigh so fat,  i lost my waist that is worse than the person,  i gained alot of weight,  i look fat and aunty now.

Thanks but no thanks. 

I obviously know i gained weight. U think fun to have ur whole wardrobe of clothes being changed becos u cant fit into ur s and m size clothes any more?

U think fun to look into the mirror and seeing ur waist growing side ways?

U think fun to step on the weighing machine and see the number keep going up but actually u oso cant do much now?

If im fat bcos im lazy and not pregnant den ok.  I deserve it.

But hello i got a living thing in my body leh. So should i go on hunger strike.  So my weight could go down . oh ya.   Or jus probably stop taking pictures and meeting people till i give birth and successfully slim down. 

Maybe that would be a better plan.

Ok jus shut up already.