Week 31 - Goodbye Pregnancy Honeymoon

It's been about a week since i step into 3rd trim? I don't know if due to me mentally thinking that its harder to go through 3rd trim, or it really is - physically. But this one week its really quite bad.

The aches (which is always there, got worse.)
The bump (which was fine and tolerable became very heavy and hard and constantly stretching its very gaoweh. Especially when I sleep at night cause I cannot find a proper sleeping position. Everytime i need to turn to move to a new position is like want my life.)
The itch (isnt helping at all, but im glad it got slightly better after seeing GP and getting the itchy med + new cotton panties)
The rage of emotions ( I used to feel i can still maintain it quite well but today is just very very down + negative. Maybe coupled with the soreness of body + having to walk tui 2 times this morning, rushing for work, the heat and sweat and long journey.. not to mention about the disturbing dream i had abt p. It kept haunting me.  i already cannot sleep properly liao and when i do, these kinda dreams appear. fml. )

I feel so pekcek now i wanna cry, but like no valid reason to thou. just... very pekcek at everything.

It's my last mermaid event this weekend, pet fiesta. But you know, sitting on the floor doing the bowties used to be enjoyable. but now i had to tahan to do it bcos i have to do it. the back is breaking everytime i sit, and i feel shitty when i have to get up to get some materials or packing stuff from else where.

I hate it when things drop on the floor or i had to pick up stuff from the floor (e.g kio-ing tui's bowl or putting it down, refilling his water cos i need to bend , and i need to hold my breath everytime i do it).

Den when yesterday i told ahwai hes the light master, key master, curtain master, rubbish master, pick shit master and wipe paw master and wash clothes master. he ask me den wad master am i.

i said im dog master. but apart from that idk wad i am already. felt so useless at that moment.
and with the bump getting in the way these days, alot of things that i used to be able to do, i dun feel like doing anymore (like sitting on the floor to wipe tui's paw bcos its very xinku), which in turn it might become ahwai's job also. And i can foresee i wont be able to bath tui soon also.. cause it requires alot more bending. den it will fall on ahwai again.

den wad can i do?!

i dun wan to jus be lieing down there doing nth like a fei ren. i want to be able to move about mobilely... happily and bring tui out more/ spend more time with him before baby comes. I want to be able to contribute to the household also.


why did i choose this path .... :(