Week 39 - Natural or C sect?

And so the scan for amniotic fluid didnt have much conclusion.  Gynae say its low but not super low.

We decided to soft book for c sect on 11th Nov.  (wanted 8th but the dates given were 7, 9 and 10th).

Had a mental/ emotionl breakdown yt while walking tui during his evening walk. He shat in the morning but i know he still has shit to offload.  Walked him over to sculpture park but he kept pulling me in diff directions. I will be ok if im not carrying that very heavy bump and had a hard time pulling him back,  feeling all hot and pekcek.  I knew my limit was almost up. Its like the building up of frustrations and i kept telling tui pls pls faster shit.  Cos if u miss this round of shitting chance,  u most probably have to wait till tomorrow.

After 30min he finally shat a full bag and we went home. But that was also when i couldnt take it anymore and jus cried like fuck the moment i reached home.

Abit siao la but felt so much better after crying. Lehubz didnt realise but after tt he comforted me.

Both of us werent feeling our best these few weeks,  partly due to stress from guessing when the baby might come.  Living in nervous mode every night, the physical gaoweh ness for me, external factors from our families and work for him.

Every thing just came at the same time and we felt the house energy was also affected.

Times like this i hope we can jus go for a short break and get a breather.  Away from baby stuff,  away from other ppls opinion and advices and negative energies.

3 more days to meet baby and i hope we can uplift the energy in our home to welcome this lil one.

So i woked up today and googled how to remove negative energy from home LOL.

Ok,  with my bump i cant do much or get the necessary.  So the best i could do was to start packing the hse (decluttering). Kept the laundry and folded them,  cleaned the tv console and diffuse some essential oil.

Will probably play some nicer music later on.. 

Too bad my reiki havent reach the level where i can cleanse the space energy.
Neither do i have himalayan salt lamp or sage to cleanse the space or crystal to help with it. 

Aiya think next time ba!  Gonna chill for the rest of the noon. Faster weekend sia sibeh sian.