Week 31 - Goodbye Pregnancy Honeymoon

It's been about a week since i step into 3rd trim? I don't know if due to me mentally thinking that its harder to go through 3rd trim, or it really is - physically. But this one week its really quite bad.

The aches (which is always there, got worse.)
The bump (which was fine and tolerable became very heavy and hard and constantly stretching its very gaoweh. Especially when I sleep at night cause I cannot find a proper sleeping position. Everytime i need to turn to move to a new position is like want my life.)
The itch (isnt helping at all, but im glad it got slightly better after seeing GP and getting the itchy med + new cotton panties)
The rage of emotions ( I used to feel i can still maintain it quite well but today is just very very down + negative. Maybe coupled with the soreness of body + having to walk tui 2 times this morning, rushing for work, the heat and sweat and long journey.. not to mention about the disturbing dream i had abt p. It kept haunting me.  i already cannot sleep properly liao and when i do, these kinda dreams appear. fml. )

I feel so pekcek now i wanna cry, but like no valid reason to thou. just... very pekcek at everything.

It's my last mermaid event this weekend, pet fiesta. But you know, sitting on the floor doing the bowties used to be enjoyable. but now i had to tahan to do it bcos i have to do it. the back is breaking everytime i sit, and i feel shitty when i have to get up to get some materials or packing stuff from else where.

I hate it when things drop on the floor or i had to pick up stuff from the floor (e.g kio-ing tui's bowl or putting it down, refilling his water cos i need to bend , and i need to hold my breath everytime i do it).

Den when yesterday i told ahwai hes the light master, key master, curtain master, rubbish master, pick shit master and wipe paw master and wash clothes master. he ask me den wad master am i.

i said im dog master. but apart from that idk wad i am already. felt so useless at that moment.
and with the bump getting in the way these days, alot of things that i used to be able to do, i dun feel like doing anymore (like sitting on the floor to wipe tui's paw bcos its very xinku), which in turn it might become ahwai's job also. And i can foresee i wont be able to bath tui soon also.. cause it requires alot more bending. den it will fall on ahwai again.

den wad can i do?!

i dun wan to jus be lieing down there doing nth like a fei ren. i want to be able to move about mobilely... happily and bring tui out more/ spend more time with him before baby comes. I want to be able to contribute to the household also.


why did i choose this path .... :(

Week 30 - 10 more weeks of freedom

hi baby,

We finally hit the 3rd trimester and you have been a good boy so far.

Quite thankful that it has been a smooth pregnancy so far except for some super itchy xxx and backaches which i think most people suffered from.

Done the GD Test in week 23 and HENG AH I PASSED. lol. Really fingers crossed cause i never purposely control or be strict with my sugar intake.

I would like to take this chance to record down and thank your papa for being such a supportive and loving hub throughout.
Getting or making food that we wanted to eat, and also helping me to apply stretchmark oil every other night.

Now that november is drawing nearer and nearer, its abit scary + nervous how our lives will be after u are out.. And i really wonder how u will look like hahahaha.

Its a busy 2 months:

Sept - make mooncake + ur papa bday + pet fiesta event next week. Need to chiong out Xmas and CNY bows too.

Oct - all the anniversaries + reiki course + weekly gynae visits before i go on leave to work from home.

So pls bake till mid november if can alright! Let me clear more checklist and enjoy a lil more 2 person time and we will put in our very best once u are out.

And pls pls be best friend with tui. ♥

Keep calm and ignore

In life, we have those people that really provides emotional support and encouragement in your life. A quick chat once inawhile to check on one anothers condition and sending love + positive vibes.

On the other hand, u have ppl who are constantly drowned in negativity, complaints and overthinking. And those ppl feel u shudnt judge them.

Aiya. I can be nice, i can be nasty (which level of nastiness den depends on how negative u are) thou ppl say im generally quite mild.

So as a gemini, once i decided that im gonna black list u out of my life/things i give a fuck about, thats it. No need to come and explain shit or put :) :) :) behind msgs that arent what it supposed to mean. #toofake

Bye.

Thoughts on Life after giving birth

Frankly speaking i dunno if i will be able to handle a baby and doggy at the same time. Thou tuitui is like one of the easiest and independent dog to handle already (except for the occassional lao sai episodes and limping legs).

When i hear infant or baby or toddlers cry / kick up a fuss and making lots of noise in public, the fear is greater. Do i have the patience for this shit? Will i be able to tolerate if its my own kid? Will i be able to stop them from irritating and disturbing other ppl in time?  Will my kid listen to me?

Will i still have quality time to spend with tuitui? Hes getting older as days pass by. And every min with him is equally as precious as how the baby grows up. But baby grows UP, tui grows OLD. Thats the difference.

I really hope im still able to shower him with enough or best the same amount of love and attention. Pls dun tell me i wont one lah cos baby more impt. Blablablaaa a shit. Cause i noe a new born or baby is really alot more mafan than tui.

Sigh.. Seeing this old limping dog with the kelian face really breaks my heart. Please please get well soon (permanently) my dear boy.

Animal comming with my baby

Lol. This might sound abit crazy but we recently wondered if can use the same method to talk to unborn babies?

Mich helped me to talk to baby a few days back and gotten a reply.

Tried it today and he actually replied me. Its like a inner voice within. U noe its not really urself. Sometimes he coupled with some movements in the tummy too.

Week 16: The unexpected gender reveal

Time flies and we are at the halfway mark of this whole pregnancy journey. 4 weeks ago, we had another appointment with our vet, lol erm no, GYNAE!!! I wasn't really prepared to know the baby's gender but mouth itchy and ask the doctor : "now can know gender already not ah?" 

He did not reply me.. and continued scanning, while explaining that baby is normal...blabla.. this is the baby's xxx... and suddenly he said: THERE SEE THIS IS THE KUKUBIRD!

DAAANGGGGZZZZZZ. Totally can feel the whole room's atmosphere crumbling down. Especially when I look at le hubz's expression LOLOL (He looked like he failed his major exam and cannot graduate). I know how much he wanted a girl/ anticipated for one, as much as I was quite disappointed with the revelation, I tried to comfort and tell him that "Aiya nevermind, please accept reality" #butobviouslyhecannot. After which I bet none of us remembered what the doctor said as he continued....

Lehubz then ask: "What are the chances of him becoming a girl during the next scan?" *Feeling hopeful*

Dr: This one so obvious already wont wrong one lah. 1%. #can

DAAAANGGGGZZZZZ. #hopesdashed 

We walked out feeling all complicated and unable to digest what we just heard. Because it was so sudden we weren't prepared to accept the reality. On the way back, to soothe our emotions, we started to brain storm names for boys (because we have been thinking about girl's name all the while only LOLOL).  

That helped a little. But hub says lets hope it's a finger or hand. Cannot confirm till the detailed scan/ when baby is born *Facepalm*

Here's the legendary kukubird picture:

Save meeee!

Rant post.

One thing about pregnancy that hits my threshold is probably how ppl keep dictating or nagging me about wad i can do or cannot do.

I did read up and research on some.  And i know its "for my own good" "if not u will regret next time" "if not next time ur baby come out u die xxxx" "if not u old liao will have body ache"

Cannot drink cold drink
Cannot drink caffeine
Cannot eat sugary stuff
Cannot jump
Cannot run
Cannot bath
Cannot bring baby out after sunset
Cannot this
Cannot that

放过我吧...